In memory of G. Valmont Thomas – December 15, 1959 – December 18, 2017 “There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.” ~ Albert Einstein Focusing on what’s good. As the year’s end approaches, I’ve been … More Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas
I wonder what might have been if you – truly the best friend I’ve ever had – could have stayed in my life and I could have stayed in yours. Perhaps, we could have gone deeper and wider than we thought possible.
I do wonder. I know you do too.
Ten years. I still think of you, think of how we changed each other, think of what happened between us in the dark, on the road, over countless plates of enchiladas and pork pot stickers and Pho from the restaurant around the corner from your apartment.
I miss that rawness, that emotion skimming the surface of everything.
I miss listening to you laugh. I miss playing word games in the car.
I miss you. … More The Last Letter My Ex Never Wrote Me
I have to toughen up and I have to tough it out. I need to go out and meet the world because unless I do I will remain tentative and small. I will be a tiny haiku instead of a searing memoir. … More Grace Notes: Developing a Brave Heart
I admit it is one of those down-in-the-dumps days. If I let myself cry, I fear I’ll never stop. Health stuff: a suspicious sighting on my mammogram, in both breasts. The need to have my weeping uterus scraped and checked for cancer. Finding myself heading in and out of doctor’s offices. Answering phone call after … More Litany: Now What?
“Of course I’ll hurt you. Of course you’ll hurt me. Of course we will hurt each other. But this is the very condition of existence. To become spring, means accepting the risk of winter. To become presence, means accepting the risk of absence.” — Antoine de Saint Exupéry – The Little Prince Weep. Wail. Kvetch. Dance … More Becoming Human
“When your demons come, offer them a piece of cake.” ~ Buddhist saying Resistance is Futile. Why offer ‘cake’ to your darkness? Because even the darkness — at its most vulnerable center — is in need of love. If we love our darkness (instead of resisting it), we can integrate the lessons it comes to … More Sweet Darkness
In Memory of June White, 1931 – 2015. Reason to believe. There’s a reason. There’s always a reason for everything we experience. We may not like the reason. We may rail against it. We may gnash our teeth and weep over it, but there’s always something to learn, something to uncover, something to unearth, no matter … More A Pearl Beyond Price
“If you numb the darkness, you numb the light.” ~ Brene Brown, Daring Greatly Can Your Hear Me? Lately, I sometimes feel much like the character, Major Tom, in David Bowie’s song, Space Oddity. I am floating in my tin can, high above the world, observing, taking notes, compiling questions. My air supply is … More If You Numb the Darkness, You Numb the Light
Last Words It is the last day of 2014. Last day, last hours, last thoughts, last dreams. What roads open before me? What burdens can I release? What have I learned during this harrowing, difficult, heart-wrenching, expansive, transformative year? I woke up with Nat King Cole’s voice running through my head, singing “Nature Boy.” There … More The Greatest Thing You’ll Ever Learn…
“After nourishment, shelter and companionship, stories are the thing we need most in the world.” ― Philip Pullman Surfacing. So. There’s a lot of grief and sadness surfacing now. I’ve been pushing, pushing hard all year. Since the end of the summer, I’ve had little to no time to devote to taking care of myself, … More The Year of Living Dangerously
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