I wonder what might have been if you – truly the best friend I’ve ever had – could have stayed in my life and I could have stayed in yours. Perhaps, we could have gone deeper and wider than we thought possible.
I do wonder. I know you do too.
Ten years. I still think of you, think of how we changed each other, think of what happened between us in the dark, on the road, over countless plates of enchiladas and pork pot stickers and Pho from the restaurant around the corner from your apartment.
I miss that rawness, that emotion skimming the surface of everything.
I miss listening to you laugh. I miss playing word games in the car.
I miss you. … More The Last Letter My Ex Never Wrote Me
When I forget to love myself enough to take down time, to see where I am pushing too hard, or to recognize the ways in which I block out the sound of life in favor of ‘motoring through’ another day, my spirit gets heartsick.
Then, my body gets heartsick.
Then, my body gets ill. … More Life As Art: Beautiful, Just as You Are
What else are we here for, if not to be kind?
It costs nothing but it multiplies the good.
And we need the good. We need it. … More Grace Notes: Only Three Things Matter
When I write, I fall through the page.
When I write, I discover I have something to say.
When I write, time grows still. … More Riding This Dragon Into A New Life
We’re done. Done, done, done, done. Done. D. O. N. E. I’m washing my hands of it and walking away. I see myself happier without you. I see you happier without me. I see us both unencumbered, untangled. So, I stomp on this metaphorical grave; I pile rocks and form a cairn. I stomp and … More Grace Notes: Letting Go
In memory of Edgar Berry – wonder-cat and truly beautiful soul. July 1, 2004 – March 23, 2016 We are Starlight; We are Golden. “When it is dark enough, you can see the stars.”― Ralph Waldo Emerson Modern life tends to block our ability to recognize we are mere specks in a massive, endless universe. We … More Orion: That’s Where You’ll Be.
“After nourishment, shelter and companionship, stories are the thing we need most in the world.” ― Philip Pullman Surfacing. So. There’s a lot of grief and sadness surfacing now. I’ve been pushing, pushing hard all year. Since the end of the summer, I’ve had little to no time to devote to taking care of myself, … More The Year of Living Dangerously
Sleep is the best meditation.~ Dalai Lama A – Z Challenge – Day 26 (Better late than never) Sleep, sleeplessness Lately, sleep’s been fitful and hard to come by. When I do sleep, I awaken every couple of hours, troubled by watery dreams I find myself stewing in. I dream of rivers and tides, slippery stones, … More Zzzzzzzz
“The soul should always stand ajar, ready to welcome the ecstatic experience.” ~ Emily Dickinson A – Z Challenge – Day 19 Riding the Waves In my dreams lately, I’m walking through the forest of my youth, heading toward the sea. Sometimes the dreams are reminders to let something go; sometimes they act as a … More Releasing a World Gone Mad
A – Z Challenge – Day 15 For hatred does not cease by hatred at any time: hatred ceases by love-this is an old rule. The Dhammapada Offering We’re standing at a portal into something radically new. On Sunday morning, I heard astrologist Anne Ortelee describe this week (and next) as weeks in which ‘profound changes’ will take … More Offer Up An Open Heart