The Last Letter My Ex Never Wrote Me

December 20, 2017

I wonder what might have been if you – truly the best friend I’ve ever had – could have stayed in my life and I could have stayed in yours. Perhaps, we could have gone deeper and wider than we thought possible.

I do wonder. I know you do too.

Ten years. I still think of you, think of how we changed each other, think of what happened between us in the dark, on the road, over countless plates of enchiladas and pork pot stickers and Pho from the restaurant around the corner from your apartment.

I miss that rawness, that emotion skimming the surface of everything.

I miss listening to you laugh. I miss playing word games in the car.

I miss you. … More The Last Letter My Ex Never Wrote Me

Finding Your Tribe

July 15, 2017

I finally got to the point I was through swallowing gasoline and pretending it was fresh water.

The fire in my belly woke me.

I was angry – mostly at myself – for putting up with such shitty treatment.

And so, we parted.

Sometimes suddenly. Sometimes incrementally.

Sometimes without a word.

And that’s OK. … More Finding Your Tribe

Playing Small is No Longer an Option

July 8, 2017

The days of playing small are behind all of us.

We can’t go back.

This world needs our authenticity and our brains and our beautiful souls and our astonishing dreams and steely strength.

We may want to wimp out and sit in sloth at McDonald’s eating GMO fries and drinking cancer in a can, but we can’t. We can no longer do that if we are awake at all. … More Playing Small is No Longer an Option

What Do You Stand For?

June 28, 2017

What do I stand for?

I stand for women and babies and artists and creatives being valued for the contributions we make to life on earth.

I am for this beautiful planet and all its creatures, great and small.

I am for the voiceless and the shutdown and the shut out members of our society.

I am for the restless spirit of change.

I am for building a better world, a world that is equitable and gracious and fair and cooperative. … More What Do You Stand For?

Look Homeward, Angel

June 17, 2017

I’ve loved this experience but I love the life I have, too.

It has been revelatory and heart-opening.

And now I want to go home. I want to go back to the familiar comforts and glorious sunrises and breathtaking wildness of Northern NM.

This way of life in Barcelona has been about being, much more than doing.

And I can take that sense of how to approach life home to NM.

I want less doing and more being, as a new friend said recently in a Facebook post.  … More Look Homeward, Angel

Barcelona, baby

May 24, 2017

Last night when we were half way across the Atlantic, flying over seamounts outside of St. John, Newfoundland, I cast the I-Ching with my Kindle (how new age of me) and got the hexagram for Joy.

I’d asked about the purpose of this trip.

How perfect. Joy. … More Barcelona, baby